i write in english this time. although no one is gonna read this.
i have been good lately. but yesterday i decided i'll kill myself. i'll disappear. i don't wanna be who i am. i am ugly. i am fat. i am disgusting. no one likes me. everyone hates me.
i know my family loves me. this is selfish, but i don't care. i am just so done.
i have to wait until it's september. then i can finally end this all. hopefully.
